You desire the eternal torment of virtually all humans if they don't bend to your particular vision of god. The rest of what you believe is utterly is irrelevant to that 800 lb. gorilla in the theistic room. Even when you have a virtual buffet of kinder sects you choose a psychotic one. The KKK and NA zis only want blacks and Jews dead. What you desire for those not bending to your will is far far more evil.